There are times, that Rachelle and I have found ourselves in some tough spots. Sometimes being in ministry places us in situations, that while we are capable of leading, we would prefer to follow. Over the last 13 years in full-time ministry, we have seen and experienced some of the happiest times of our lives together, sitting at the helm of leadership. We have experienced joy unspeakable, watching our children grow up, with parents actively involved in the church, and we have had to make some tough choices in child rearing, as to our children’s involvement in the things in our church when all their friends attend elsewhere.
While there has been joy, there has also been pain. Sometimes unimaginable pain. While we have laughed some, we have also cried some too! We have mourned with friends and strangers, stood beside countless hospital beds and caskets, been with some when life comes into the world, and been with others as they leave it. It doesn’t seem to get any easier either! It is often times, the hardest to help others see the bigger picture, when you find yourselves stuck, between doing the right thing, and doing the easy thing!
Being a ministry family, is often very lonely. Most people don’t realize, the hours spent away from family, the endless weekends that keep us at home, unable to do the simple things such as taking the kids camping or to a zoo. Even worse for those of us, blessed to be serving in a small church, where another full-time job is required just to make ends meet. By the time, I get past the work week, with Sunday, Tuesday, Thursdays already gone, and work nights again on Friday nights, we only have Saturday to attempt anything remotely resembling family time! And that is almost always, prearranged because of all the work here on the farm that went undone during the week.
I Know! I am having a bit of a pity party, and I have to remind myself of Philippians 4:13,
“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength”!
But we are tired! We are burned out! We are disappointed! We spent the better part of the evening in tears, with what should have been a great new beginning, but as it seems, may be an ending instead, and because this new circumstance involves those closest to us, we feel our only recourse is to let God do what He wants to do with it, after all He is in control!